I went to the Hearst Castle for Valentines Day, it was awesome. A patchwork collection put together by a fun and visionary millionare, showing off his cowboy know how about European culture. I like to go to touristy things like this, last year I went to New Schwannstein, the castle built in Bavaria by my gay king Ludwig. Gay as in gay (he was not happy) any way, I digress.

Though I really love these palaces, the way i got to see them was absolutely disgusting. How could humans be so incredably ugly, wearing gortex sandles and taking photos of the ugly construction waterpumps at the hearst castle, sucking on sugar and pushing their prodigy and ugly, fat, lover people around. I feel disgusted by it because I am no better, unfortunately. And made of nothing different. I wish i could just be a fairy made of light and just fly away from this dirty world. I saw the seals near the castle. I loved their cute ways but was also disgusted by their smell and loved/hated their weird sounds like monkey/pig/dogs. They were lying around on each other wallowing in the mud and having sex near their dead pups.

The tourists watched them facinated.

The old lady who smelled too strongly of lotion, the fat man and wife in matching red track suits, the lady with the long barbie hair and her daughters with the same hair. It all made me sea sick.

I think that I think sex is gross. Whats wrong with everybody anyway? I can't remember what I thought before? I vaguely remember thinking this stuff as a kid though, seeing the brazen vaginas in trees and knowing it was going to be my turn soon. Why does everything have to be so fat and rutting?

Anyway, I don't want toseem too negative, I just have put so much faith and expected so much from people and the world, and perhaps I shouldn't think so much."